Sometime later, the boys have pulled over on a dirt/gravel road next to a lake and are having a beer. Because, as we said, this is where all heart-to-hearts must happen. Sam wants to know if Jo looked like she was in pain, but Dean says she was just regular Jo. Actually looked a bit happier.
Dean: I got a question. So where did that come from? Volunteering to defend me?
Sam: You were gonna kick me out.
Dean (with a soft grin): In another life, you might’ve made a pretty decent…scuzbag.
Sam laughs – full-on dimple laughs. I forgot how long it’s been since we’ve seen those dimples. It was…nice.
Sam: I’m 0 for 1, Dean.
Dean: Not your fault. You were pretty convincing.
Yes. He was, Dean. Because he was fighting for you. For your life. See how much it matters?? How much you matter?
Sam: Who was he talking about? That whole final witness thing?
Gaelic: *holds breath*
Dean (lying liar who lies): No idea! Could be about any dead person we know.
The truth is going to come out. And it’s going to be messy. But I just…I hope hope hope it’s not yet one more catalyst to push them apart. They’ve been down that road too many times. And one more time would probably destroy Dean, whether or not Sam is justified.
Dean wants to know why Osiris skipped Sam. And here’s where I think he gets the real punch in the gut. Sam says he doesn’t feel guilty anymore. Dean’s like, what’s your secret, dude? He’s light-hearted about it, but there’s this look in his eyes, this…why not me? hopelessness that just tugs at my heart.
Sam says it was Hell that did it. He did a lot that he felt bad about, paid a lot of dues, and now….
Dean’s face…it’s as if he wants to ask for a huge gift – one he knows no one can get him, but something about the moment is prompting him to think it’s possible if he were to just ask…only he can’t bring himself to do it.
Dean (with a tone like really? That’s actually possible?): And…that worked? You feel like your slate’s wiped?
Sam: No. Nothing’s wiped. Sometimes I see Lucifer when I’m brushing my teeth. I guess I just feel like my past is my past. I can move on.
Dean (speaking from personal experience): Easier said than done.
Sam: Not arguing that.
Dean: I don’t know whether to be jealous or weirded out.
Heck, I’d be jealous. A tour in Hell burned away Sam’s past guilt but just added one more weight in the yolk Dean carries. Not fair, but…kind of appropriate for who we’re dealing with. Sam’s hakkuna matta outlook would never fit on Dean. I don’t know that I believe Sam’s going to feel good for long, though. Like I said, a well-adjusted Winchester is not fun. Something’s going to break…and I would suspect it would have to do with Amy.
And Dean…the look on his face when Sam says he “feels good” isn’t just the usual Big Brother Disgruntlement of having to ride in a car with Sammy Sunshine…it’s having to do it when he feels so heavy still. So worn thin. I don’t know how it’s all going to play out or when it’s going to explode, but I feel it coming.
Until then, though, we still have MotW’s to discover and take out. And next week’s looks like it’s going to be a TRIP! Speaking of Joss…two guest stars will be SO FUN to see again.
HOWEVER – the Ramble for next week is going to be late. Like by four days. *ducks rotten fruit* I’m sorry! I am traveling and this time, I won’t have time to ramble. So, I’ll be posting that one on the 25th. I really hope you’ll come back.
Thank you for reading!
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