Outside of a Biggerson’s somewhere in Montana, Dean’s on the phone with Bobby. He says ‘Bozeman,’ then hangs up just as Sam comes out with a sack-o-food. Dean tells him they’re going to hole up in Spokane and meet up with him later.
He let’s Sam drive, all See? I trust you.
Later, pulling up to a hotel in Spokane, Dean tells Sam to check them in, then says he has to “hit the candy store – doctor’s orders.” Has to renew his prescription. Pills. Hmmm.
And then he drives off. I knew where he was going (and it took me this long to realize that Amy was from Bozeman, but had run to Spokane, which is why Bobby told them to head there), and I knew what he was going to do and why, and it twisted my heart a bit. For both of them, honestly.
Amy is at motel (with the same geometric cement block pattern they’ve had in a number of hotel sets). She walks in, Dean is inside sitting on couch in her room. There’s a great shot where the camera’s on her with Dean in the reflection of the mirror.
Dean tells her that next time she runs she ought to change her license plate – too easy to track. Which has me thinking that they’ll start there with the Impala….
He tells her that he’s Sam’s brother, but that Sam doesn’t know he’s there. Sam told him about her, though. She defends herself just as she did with Sam, but Dean isn’t Sam. Doesn’t have Sam’s past with her. Doesn’t have Sam’s tender heart. Dean’s heart has been broken and he’s never allowed it to heal, so it doesn’t feel things in quite the same way.
Plus, Sam’s fallen for a supernatural being several times over (Ruby, Madison, Amy), seeing beyond the monster to the self inside. Dean has reluctantly trusted a demon (got burned), trusted an angel (was hurt), and felt momentary kinship with another demon before his brother shot her, and that’s pretty much it.
There is a heavy dividing line between the supernatural and humans for Dean that he’s had to work to smear into the gray area of life when it comes to the things they encounter. Seeing his mom die, having the weight his Dad put on him, finding his ground and personality inside the direction his father gave him…Dean sees monsters in a much different light than his brother (when Sam has a soul, that is).
And that’s what makes the fact that Sam lives in that grey area of life so much of the time hard for them to see eye to eye on everything. And I think the fact that Dean understands that about his brother encourages him to assume he should take matters into his own hands.
He basically uses pretty much the same argument on Amy as they both used on Madison – the only difference being, Madison had accepted the truth and rejected the monster. Amy hadn’t.
Dean: People are who they are, no matter how hard they try. You will kill again. Listen to me, I’m an expert. Maybe in a year, maybe ten. But eventually, the other shoe will drop. It always does.
And as he’s talking, he stabs her. I gasped. I knew it was going to happen, but…I still gasped. It was just…so sudden. He says he’s sorry, then lays her down easily before pulling out the knife. Then, he turns around and her son is standing in the doorway. Good. Lord.
The flash of kill me now goes across Dean’s face lightning quick, and he swallows. He asks the boy if he somewhere he can go to. Kid nods. Asks him if he’s ever killed anyone. Kid shakes his head. Dean’s eyes going flat and his face dead serious, and he tells him if he ever does, Dean’ll be back for him. (Gotta wonder what he’s going to do – has to have pituitary gland to live, can’t be a mortician….)
Kid: Only person I’m gonna kill is you.
Dean (with a bitter, sad smile): Look me up in a few years…assuming I live that long.
*rubs heart* Guh, this is just…. There’s a line in the song I’m listening to now (“Hurricane,” by 30 Seconds to Mars) that says, “Tell me, would you kill to save a life? Tell me would you kill to prove you’re right?” Can’t help but think both apply to Dean in this moment.
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